Friday, January 22, 2010

Motherland Speaks

I wrote this about 3 years ago...I feel really self-conscious about showing my poems to anyone, it feels like I'm revealing my soul or something. self-presrervation and 'always keep people guessing' seems to be today's mantra..however I'm hoping this is inspire me write poetry again, someday.
Please leave comments... I will be glad to know what you think!

- Written by Srividya Chandrasekar

Why do you light fires
in the engulfing doom?
Why seek warmth from kinsmen's pyres
Which are but visions of your own doom?

Why has reason deserted you?
Why has hatred blinded you?
Why does love and peace seem
beyond reach to you?

Was the blood coursing through your veins
meant to become cold as ice?
Was your young mind, juvenile, yet kind
meant to execute plans to terrify?

Or has fear driven you away from my reach?
Has irrevocable become the path you tread?
Do you think this distance is too long to breach?
Nay, then you know not how a mother's heart beats

For if I mourn my child, who even the mighty cheer
Who fought courageous
and died exalted
For whom with pride I wipe my tears..

I also lament the loss of another
One who ran away from home
Who has lost his path in this world wild
My truant, missing child
I mourn you too, my dear.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


once again I am guilty of leaving things undone till the last minute......
'tonight' is the deadline to send my dissertation soft copy to my guide.....
feeling oddly buoyant, must be the "the worse that can happen is RIGHT here. It cant get worse than this" feeling. But then again, I am at my funniest when I'm at the peak of stress. I feel funny and happy, but it prompts people around me to ask to to relax, hug me, reassure me that its ok, SOS for anti-anxiety medication...i dunno why..i suppose i have a frantic look in my eyes!
however, dear friends(who felt the need to do the above), you are all lovely, but, this situation right now- is proof that I don't, I have'nt and I won't faint from over-anxiety and wake up with amnesia! Worry not! Relax! I am fine!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Hiware Bazar

Went to Hiware Bazar this weekend!!!!!!!
Saw Popatraoji Pawar..talked to him!
will update soon!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Happy New year!

Happy New Year everyone!!!
Hopefully I'll stick to my resolution of not leaving things halfway(bad bad me) but that just means I may convert my blog into a journal of sorts-which doesnt matter right? Feeling optimistic about 2010, something I havent felt in a long time atleast in relation to new years! Maybe it was because I was always looking back instead of looking ahead. But I've made one positive decision(really truly beautiful breathtakingly postive!)that will carry me through this year, one that charges me to smile when I wake up every morning..usually I grumble about having to do the bed! I just make sure I'm the second-last person to wake up! Yes, there are a lot of people in my house. People who dont like to do their own beds.
I was kidding. What I have decided is to just let go of all the bad feelings, forget every bad painful incident that made me promise to myself "I'll never forget this and I'll make sure you pay for this.", forget every incident that made me scream "This is sooo bloody UNFAIR!!! aargh!". Coz holding a grudge against a person is like having him/her piggybacking on you. So I just dumped them into the smelliest gutter I could find.
Another resolution is to try and be a little less scary. My tuition kid swore I scared her when I was actually congratulating her for doing her sums properly! God it was unbelievable! Must work on the unintentionally scary thing...though I have no clue where to start!
So friends, with a heart swelling with hope, I wish that you have a wonderful year ahead full of joy, health, wealth, surprises, chocolates, warm sunshine, cool raindrops, what you will.. Some of you are always in my heart though I never get around to actually saying it - But I really truly love you guys and wish you all the peace and joy in the world- Vishali, Bharo, Karthik, Meeru, Deep$, Chanda, Anisha, Neetu, Rachana, Namu, two Divyas, Archy, Lakshmi, Madhu, Suppdu(miss u gal), Ruth, Jo-Anne, Sa$ha, Adri, Shubha, $hrutzz, Ghanu, Rohit, Nandy, Divdi(miss you very much now that you have a fat paycheck too! :P), Suchi, Riddhi, Sneha, Jeeva, Kunal, Khozi, Shu, Richie, Alison, Amu, Shru sweetshru, Truppu, Divya, Kamu, Rashmi, Sneha, Sheelu, Mrun, Bhagyu......
When I was in school, we were supposed to speak extempore on any subject during our English class...I remember talking about something- something wonderful, beautiful, on hope and dreams and a glad heart, until I saw a kid making a one could understand what I was talking about. I was trying to explain what I'm feeling right now.